Even if u had that relationship
Would u be happy????
I got what I wanted. On several occasions. Soul mate love. But I still wasn't happy within me.
I am here to tell you What you're looking for can't be found in another. I was thinking this person this fine ass guy this beautiful man was my happy day. My happy life my husband my booty call for life....
It was not so. I walked away or self sabatoged bc I did not know me. Or who I was or what I wanted. I felt unfulfilled. What I was searching for could not be fulfilled in another man another human.
So I left or self sabatoged. I had to do me still do me find me. Look we are all perfectly imperfect and there is no perfect time to be in love - Find Love. Fr. We perfect at different levels at this thing called life. Dont take it too serious we don't make it out alive lol we make it out More Alive on the Other side- Our real Home. So chill. Anyways.....
I had to fall in love with myself & find out wtf I love.
I loved to sing ✔
I was still harboring abandonment issues I needed to heal & face & a whole truck load of violent repressed memories from my childhood I didn't face yet . So it was time ✔
Repressed trauma stays in your auric field. Keeping u from your full essence of your higher self. You need to allow yourself to let go of that sadness and emotional pain. You need to let go of unnecessary pain. ✔
To level up & to get to the frequency that you so much Deserve ✔
There is so much alone time that you need to do in order to speak to yourself to ask yourself "Baby, how do we fill this void with our Barbie girl sparkly energy?" -ask yourself that. Because you mf are. Talk to yourself make it the best friendship and lover-ship in the whole entire mf world !!! Eat yourself out if possible lol
Let get back to the drawing board
You're a baddie ✔
When you're babies leaves th nest, when your husband dies. Who's gonna love you?
YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU (IN my Solda Boy voice) YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
Work on it early right now so YOU do not have empty nest syndrome when you're older. It is nobodies job to make u happy or fill that void!!!!
It is your job .
You just got to sit with yourself everyday each day and have the conversation with yourself.
What makes me happy?
Make it a goal each day.
Closer to building that ultimate union with yourself #GOAT
Takes a brave ass bitch to face their demons but thats what u are!!!!!
A STRONG ASS MF WARRIOR OF LOVE & LIGHT & YOU DO DESERVE THE BEST LIFE !!!!! YOU ARE MORE THAN WORTHY OF A BEAUTIFUL LIFE !!!!
I LOVE YOU BABY I LOVE YOU .